stepping on a rake
It's been a long whie since I've posted and with good reason. I've held my emotions close to the chest. I've literally held them from everyone. My younger brother, whom I am closed to, knows little to knowing about my feelings. I can't bring myself to talk about it with anyone. My girlfriend left me in August of last year for reasons that were her own. I don't blame her and I know my part in things and had I done things differently...who knows. I still love her. I never stopped loving her. She tried to see if we could meet after things were over to exchange items and maybe talk over a beer. I couldn't do that. I was in so much pain. As I write this, I have tears in my eyes. she offered me friendship and I really wish I could have accepted it. That was impossible. how can you be friends with someone you still love? I know things were different for her....