compatibility
I've not spoken of this here but Depression, the Black Dog, is something I've struggled with for a very long time. The last time I was not depressed was when I was deeply in love with a woman who saw me for who I am and loved me anyway. I have never before or since loved someone so deeply, so completely as I did with her. Unfortunately, I pushed her away and the pain and the loss are beyond what I could have expected. I was married for over 20 year and the loss of that relationship is far beyond any pain or loss I have experienced. The worst part is that it was my fault. I cannot blame anyone else and every single day I contend with that loss. She knows this blog exists but I know she has moved on and does not read this. I think that makes it easier to be honest. Knowing her as much as I do, she would likely roll her eyes at the fact that I am still in love with her. She ended things and I'm quite certain that after that day she never thou...