I've not spoken of this here but Depression, the Black Dog, is something I've struggled with for a very long time. The last time I was not depressed was when I was deeply in love with a woman who saw me for who I am and loved me anyway. I have never before or since loved someone so deeply, so completely as I did with her. Unfortunately, I pushed her away and the pain and the loss are beyond what I could have expected. I was married for over 20 year and the loss of that relationship is far beyond any pain or loss I have experienced. The worst part is that it was my fault. I cannot blame anyone else and every single day I contend with that loss. She knows this blog exists but I know she has moved on and does not read this. I think that makes it easier to be honest. Knowing her as much as I do, she would likely roll her eyes at the fact that I am still in love with her. She ended things and I'm quite certain that after that day she never thou...
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Well, she had another boy and she didn't leave him, fortunately. In fact, she ended up staying home with them because it turned out to be cheaper for her to quit her job than to keep it and put them all in day care. So, not only did she have three boys, but she ended up spending all day at home with them every day. Lost touch with her so I never heard how it worked out.